musings

coffee; smelling; my perfect nose; a bunch of dandies; heart of gold;Portland my old lover; cum; fat; queergrrls; glorious

Roley Poley; Honey tongued stoney; Mama's coming to spank a pony; sweet cinnamon stick; lick me, lick; take a dip in my sugar, trick

Lightening bolt;Daddy on a stick; apple pies;fleshy folds entwined; porky; podgy;bois in a bowl; are you ready Michigan?? i am killing myself...

Femmes entranced; queer boi danced; image makes a flickr glance; a trupet, a crumpet and sweet honey blanket; fly my pretty, clear crimson sky

If we could be Barbie dolls, I would change your clothes by the moment, taking delicate care to caress your plastic curves and paint your toes golden sunshine...

Slap! i feel your pain; hunger; mouth;scales; slap; you are my friend;slap;delicious hand movement; creation; i am your bitch; come

twice an angel; blended coffee; sweet couplings; tongue dancing; hand holding; suck my clit

sadness;depart;gone;hello;friendly subs;bubs smiling;warm my kidneys;hold you dear;dare;shoot a deer;pain;gone

It's all right to cry by Carol Hall

It's all right to cry
Crying gets the sad out of you
It's all right to cry
It might make you feel better

Raindrops from your eyes
Washing all the mad out of you
Raindrops from your eyes
It's gonna make you feel better

It's all right to feel things
Though the feelings may be strange
Feelings are such real things
And they change and change and change

Sad 'n' grumpy, down in the dumpy
Snuggly, hugly, mean 'n' ugly
Sloppy, slappy, hoppy, happy
Change and change and change

It's all right to know
Feelings come and feelings go
It's all right to cry
It might make you feel better

It's all right to cry, little boy
I know some big boys that cry too

My James Dean

Tikkun Ha'nefesh (repairing my soul)

I think that the calmer I get - the clearer I feel. All I focus now on is being authentically me in what truly moves me....Making decisions that empower me, rather then ones that are sacrificial in nature. The more I approach things with peaceful heart and determined truth - the happier and more control my environment gets. I am done with Drama - at least the kind I create myself. I consciously choose open and honest interactions and remain true to me.....and even when it seems as though I've done something for another - the end result is that it is my own truth to be kind and compassionate and therefore feeds my own soul.

humanity as a whole? well, my first step toward tikkun olam is to take care on my own garden, this will keep the weeds from spreading and infecting my neighbors garden.

Shame

I will not let you

shame me
The sorrows of your life
The atrocities that banished you
Into unforgiving places
Your reality is the darkness that I emerged from
Your reflection in the pool of muddy waters
Will not illuminate me
I reject your notion
I will not be ashamed of my body, nor my hair or my love
I am the product of your depression
I am the tool that broke your ground
You used me to build the family
Yet never acknowledged my sacrifice
I am my own vision
I will be apart
It is my hands that make my life
I am good from the very start
My heart breads no tarnished want
I am not ashamed any more

A question of + thoughts

When a friend comes to you with a problem, do you see the bright side of things or do you advise them of all the possible trauma, fatalities and negative scenarios?

How do you see the world - glass 1/2 full or glass 1/2 empty?

I recently watched some very negative energy circle a person I love. I'm not sure why I'm surprised, but I still am that so many people still are so afraid of taking a chance, refusing to allow themselves to experience connections, love and compassion. So many are still so embedded in negative thought patterns.

So that lead me to think about how do we keep ourselves thinking positively and the effects of such type of thought on our life journey and outcome of events.

Positive thinking promotes growth, expansion and success. A positive mind anticipates happiness, joy, health and a successful outcome of every situation and action. Positive and negative thinking are both contagious. All of us affect, in one way or another, the people we meet. This happens instinctively and on a subconscious level, through thoughts and feelings transference, and through body language. People sense our aura and are affected by our thoughts, and vice versa. Is it any wonder that we want to be around positive people and avoid negative ones? People are more disposed to help us if we are positive, and they dislike and avoid anyone broadcasting negativity.

Negative thoughts, words and attitude bring up negative and unhappy moods and actions. When the mind is negative, poisons are released into the blood, which cause more unhappiness and negativity. This is the way to failure, frustration and disappointment.

So at least for myself, I know that all I can do to make myself and my surroundings be positive, is just keep on thinking positively.

Enjoy and be +

Femme

I came out in the era of androgyny. The left over flavor of the 70's style feminism had infused the community with self hate, assimilation and shame. Lesbians in Philadelphia were lost in their need to be and not be seen. A queer community didn't exist, and most connections happened around a cocktail at the local dyke bar. Edges were rounded, politics were side swiped and so many had fallen into the arms of complacency. Butch was not a word uttered by anyone to describe themselves let alone claim it as an identity. Femme was not a word I ever heard and anyone manifesting outwardly femininity was called a Lipstick Lesbian. I was confused, bewildered and lost in a land of no words to describe, not only my attractions but my own identity. Several years will pass before I grow into my gender. I now utter HER name over and over again until she grows into a power of atomic magnitude that vibrates so powerfully that she's felt for millions of miles.

I am a Femme, A High Femme, A Power Femme. Unadulterated, unyielding, unwavering, unashamed, unabashed, unrelenting, Femme!

In the presence of heros

At the edge of cliffs

I sit with dangling feet

Wanting to jump into the abyss

I feel the wind lift my hair

and gently I lean to hear the sound

It calls to me softly

The pounding waves

Crash at my soul

I know that there are words

That I can claim my vision

I close my eyes tight

And leap into the air

To land amongst the fallen

I glide gently

And to my astonishment

I land softly

In the presence of Heros